Well hello, stranger!

Wow!  Has it really been a year and a half since my last post?!  That's crazy!

A lot has happened since May 2007...I don't think there is enough space on the web to reminisce on all of those days!  lol

So, to keep things short and sweet...Mother's day 2007 came and went.  My birthday came also like clockwork in June..(it happens every year) and summer began.

The summer of 2007 was not so bad, surprisingly!  The family went on a road trip to Oregon to visit my husbands (yes I am still married) Aunt.  That was a fun trip!  It was our family of 5, plus Mark and Kim and there 5 kids!!!  Yes 5!!  Stayed up there about a week, and went deep water fishing...the 'men' chummed the waters for us girls (if you get my drift); set off some fireworks for the 4th and just had a blast catching up with everyone!  One more awesome memory of that summer is Connor's trip to ER, as he wrecked his bike, crashed into a tree and split his noggin open...15 stitches! Yeah, good times!

Fall came...not a lot happend..or at least nothing to really brag about.  There were more fights, and days and nights where I was pretty irratated, but it has become to be something of the norm now.  Thanksgiving was ok.  Russ went to Oregon with his brother and his family.  I wasnt invited, and they all made plans behind my back and I didnt know he was leaving until wednesday, the day before!  I beleive they made the plans thinking that because I had family coming down for the holiday, that I wouldnt want to go with, so they just excluded me all together!  He was gone like 2 or 3 days, I dont remember.  I kept my cool for about a month over the whole thing, and then I let loose.  I dont think he or his brother will make plans w/o me again.  Whether I would have went or declined the trip, I still should have been able to make that choice, and now I think they understand.  At least I hope!

That Christmas was lame.  We were very very broke, and the kids kind of had a crummy day...sure we spent it with family and the food was great, but me as a parent, would love to be able to give presents to my kids and watch them laugh and have huge smiles...meh, it was mediocre.  Nothing to write home about.

We rang in 2008 with our friends Greg and Shelly.  It was a good night!  We ended up staying the night, as neither one of needed to be behind the wheel...got tanked, rang in the new year, took  a few pictures and made promises we never could keep..Same ol thing!

So that was 2007 in a nutshell.  You know me though, It was way more dramatic then that!  LOL

I just didnt feel like rehashing all the crap, yanno!  Summer rocked...Fall and Winter sucked.

Just wait til you hear about 2008!  Man...

Mother's Day

I look forward to Mother's Day each year. Its like that ONE day where your family really appreciates you, and treats mom like the queen she is. That is, at least that's the rumor. I have yet to experience this. Why is that, I wonder?

Do I not clean the house enough or good enough? Do I not do enough laundry? Are my cooking skills that bad? Do I not sign enough progress reports or permission slips for field trips? Do I not drive everyone around to where they need to be and get them there on time each time? Do I smell bad? Or is it just that I do not deserve such happiness?

I hear that some moms get breakfast in bed! Along with some moms, they also get hugs and kisses and I love you's too! Sometimes you hear Thank You for all that you do. Some moms have a whole day dedicated to them! They might receive flowers, not necessarily roses or a huge bouquet worth 300 dollars...but maybe just some from 7-11...YES they sell flowers! This one mom was telling me how she was taken out to brunch by her husband and her kids, and THEN was allowed to pick a movie. Can you Imagine that? Being able to pick out a movie you might even want to see? Now, I do not require a bank roll the size of Donald Trump to have a nice day. You don't have to spend a dime on me actually. Pack up some sandwiches and sodas from the fridge and lets go to the park...I love sunshine, and the kids have fun too...Take me to the lake. Its free to get in..the kids can play and Mom can relax in the sun, or in the shade...

Must I wait until my own children grow up, move out, get married, have their own kids and lives before they notice I am around??? Then at that time, wouldn't we be celebrating Grandparents day instead??

Mother's Day is supposed to be a Family event right? Or am I getting the whole holiday wrong? I was brought up celebrating my mother. Loving her, treating her with grace and respect, as we should every day, not just one day a year. I remember making her cards, and gifts at school...and then when I was old enough to earn money, I would get her gifts..some were nothing big, but they came from me and I though of her. I remember my dad would always have a big BBQ and we would swim all day long, and mom never had to lift one finger...we cleaned the house for her, we gave her back rubs, refilled her drinks, made the food...it was all about MOM!!!

Where is it written that to make Mothers Day special you need to leave her at the crack of dawn, and go to breakfast with only ONE of your children and leave the rest out, while you feast with other people?

Is that just insane or what?

I have three children. Only one got to go out to eat. WHY? Why was I not invited on Mothers day to spend the morning with my own family and eat and talk and laugh and whatnot??

OH that's right. He left me so I could sleep in. He wanted to show me how much he cared on Mothers Day.

Because apparently that's what Id rather do...sleep the whole freakin day away alone. like a flippin addict or something.

And people wonder why I am depressed most of the time...

I did, however, get a invite from Kim. She too was left alone to sleep while everyone went out for a Mothers Day Breakfast. So she called me and asked if I would like to go to lunch! So Kim and her mom and I went out. Moms Luncheon, with out kids and family. It was nice to be thought of, that is for sure. I love Kim to death, but sometimes you really want to feel the love from the ones that actually LIVE with you, yanno? I keep hoping it will happen.

I had a great time with Kim. Thank you so much for thinking of me and including me along. Your the only one who thought of me. YOU RULE!

I know Mothers Day isn't all about gifts...I don't live for Mothers Day just so I can have a present...but I tell ya right now...it would be nice. LOL I got one yesterday. My youngest, Connor, made me a keychain. He actually made me the keychain, wrote me a story about me, and then made me a card, too!!!

I suppose it could have been worse. (which has happened a few times)

If Mother's Day isn't really supposed to include MOM, then next year, I might just go off alone. Spend the day alone. Maybe sleep all day alone, after a few pitchers of margaritas, ALONE, while taking care of a bottle of rum ALONE. ...seeing as Mothers Day does not include your family...Mothers day is just a day where everyone is supposed to leave you alone and not bother you....

Because I am alone most of the day and most of the night, and on weekends too. What's another day?

Maybe I will go out the lake. pitch a tent, and spend the weekend alone. Seeing as that is how is it supposed to roll. Right? Rent me a Jet Ski or boat..make my own bon fire, scramble my own damn eggs and just enjoy my EMO'ness......

Ahhh Holidays. It brings out the best in me! LMAO Gotta Love em!

Alright well it wasn't all that bad, Emily 'started' dinner for me..Cheeseburger Macaroni. Oh and I did get to watch the last 45 minutes of Just Like Heaven with Reese Witherspoon...didn't get to see the whole movie...but you can be too greedy on Mothers day.

Well I am done spewing off....a good rant always makes me feel a little better! LOL I hope you had a wonderful Mother's Day, and was actually thought of and loved. All moms deserve love, not just on mothers day, but any day. There doesn't have to be a holiday to show a mom love, but just for shits and giggles...next time a holiday rolls around, and its for a specific person...remember to include them! Father's Day is coming up...you wouldn't want us to plan a trip to the beach and not include you, do you? OR say, invite GREG over, but not tell you where we are meeting.......

Hell...if I was going to leave you alone and take the kids out to breakfast...Id at least take them ALL....and not just one of them..

freaking looser!

and with that I conclude this blog...nothing left to say. that's crazy huh. I am done writing!

Panic?

alrighty, well most of the time family is everything to me, and I will do just about anything to help them out...but what is coming up might be enough to send me to the mental ward.

My sister in law has been wanting to change her career. From stay at home mom, to Correctional Officer. Big jump huh! She has already went in for the first part of the testing, the written part, and passed with flying colors. Now she is getting in to shape for the Physical part of the test...
If she passes that, then she will be signed up for actual training.

Training runs for 16 weeks. Yes! 3 Months! Training is NOT in our town, but out of town, and she will not be allowed to come home, not even on weekends.

I bet you can tell where this is going....If mom is gone who is watching the 4 kids for 16 weeks?

I thought asking me to watch the kids for 4 days while they went on a cruise was bad enough....not sure how this will work.

I have already begun to panic and its not even set in stone yet. Just the thought of it is causing hives to break out.

I want her to do this. It is a good thing for her and the family and the money is awesome from what I hear...Just kind of tired sitting back and watching everyone else get it together.

I think I mentioned this a few posts back, but if she gets this job she could be relocated to another part of California. So on top of me taking care of her family while she is away for such a long time, when she gets back, she could be moving away, taking her kids away from my kids! I think my kids will have a hard time with that. I am not looking forward to the future..it seems pretty scary to me.

Has anyone every asked you to do something this big for them? Does it not seem like a huge favor? Its one thing to call up a friend and ask them to watch the kids for the night, or maybe even over night...but 3 months?

What happens if this takes place in the fall and the kids are all in school? Will I move in with my brother in law? Will Emily have to make sure the kids at our house get off to school while I make sure the other side gets taken care of?

ugh! I am not sure I WANT to do this!
I might have a panic attack.